Sunday, June 14, 2015

Menjelang Ramadhan

Eh

Hi

Blog?

I am sorry.

Nah begitu lah perasaan ku setiap log in blog. Mencoba konsisten dan setia menulis.
Tapi hasilnya blog saya masih kosong saja.
Sekali posting dan menulis kemudian hilang lagi.
Ditelan oleh kesibukan duniawi. Haha

Iya saya memang curhat. Dan lagi lagi saya itu baru bisa nulis ya diantara deadline.
Sekarang ini saya harus menyelesaikan presentasi review peluncuran produk baru, tapi toh tergoda juga buat nulis a.ka curhat.

Jadi, entah berapa minggu belakangan ini, saya ingin mendekat kepada Tuhan. Memang sholat saya usahakan untuk selalu rutin. Tapi karena kalo sholat otak suka kemana mana alhasil saya pikir kualitas komunikasi saya dengan Tuhan belum bisa dikategorikan dekat.
Hingga akhirnya, saya sadar...
Kayanya saya kebanyakan mengharap pada manusia dan terlalu memikirkan duniawi. hehe

Hmmm..kemudian ada masalah lain yang suka bikin saya "gedeg" (sebal), yaitu orang-orang yang suka bilang cepet nikah lah, kok belum punya pacar lah, kok masih sendiri lah, nunggu apa lagi lah bla bla bla

Sampai akhirnya tiap ada yang bilang seperti itu, saya selalu bilang "kok jadi di bully gini sih? kenapa jadi society pressure gini? ya kalo emang belum ada gimana? apa harus dipaksa cepet2 kawin? lha kalo nanti kesusu tapi gagal gimana?" bla bla bla. Alhasil yang ngatain saya agak mundur dan merendah. Habisnya saya sebaaal, mungkin karena tahun belakangan ini hubungan saya dengan beberapa lelaki belum berhasil. Sering gagal bahkan di masa pendekatan (semoga bukan karena saya payah :D). Jadi, bukannya saya tidak berusaha, tapi mungkin memang belum waktunya.

Nah ceritanya hari ini saya jalan jalan sama teman nih. Laki-laki. Ganteng. Rasanya dari awal liat udah naksir. Sekitar tahun 2012 entah awal/akhir. Saya lupa tepatnya. Karena waktu itu dia udah punya pacar dan saya gak niat juga buat ngedeketin.
Sampai sekarang sih belum ada tanda juga kalo dia mungkin ada "sparks" atau getaran. Namun hari ini saya lihat dia, rasanya berbeda. Waduh naksir mungkin saya. Tapi saya gak berani juga buat kasih kode. Takut patah hati. Pasalnya kompetisi buat dapat nih bocah laki-laki cukup kompetitif. Tapi setiap dia berkunjung ke kota saya, pasti dia menghubungi saya. Dan kami akan berjalan jalan layaknya teman dekat. Atau mungkin dia tidak ada pilihan teman lain, selain saya.

Terlepas dari itu semua, tapi laki-laki ini, dia satu-satunya laki-laki yang membuat saya bisa menyebutkan nama dia dalam doa saya. Karena meski saya pernah Umrah dan meminta jodoh, tapi saya tidak yakin untuk menyebut nama orang. Saya hanya minta yang terbaik, manut kalian Gusti Allah :)

Jadi, inti curhat saya malam ini sih, semoga doa saya bisa terkabul dan namanya yang disebut bisa dikirimkan buat saya. Atau jikapun tidak, maka saya akan berdoa agar dia tetap buat saya hehe agak maksa.

Semoga dengan kekuatan doa, segala yang kita inginkan dapat terwujud dan diridhai oleh Yang Maha Kuasa.

Jangan lupa 2 hari lagi bulan Ramadhan, mari kita persiapkan niat dan hati kita untuk beribadah khusuk kepada Allah SWT. Semoga segala amalan kita diterima, doa kita dikabulkan dan dosa-dosa kita diampuni. Amin.

Happy Ramadhan, dan semoga ada berkah untuk dapat selalu berkarya (dan konsisten latihan menulis).

Biar tulisan-nya makin lama makin gak biasa.

Nite and Cheers :)

 

Sunday, April 19, 2015

First Post of 2015 :(

Hey hello dear my blog,
 
I have missed you, and I just remember that I should come and visit you more often.
Anyway it's been a busy year this year, work life its getting busier.
 
I got a loooot to tell and write cause I have travel to some places during this 4 months, and unexpectedly so many experience were come.
 
Starting my new year eve with my bestfriend in Gili Trawangan, Lombok.
 
February I have to go to Semarang for business meeting with my boss and met Bu Risma in a bus, I just realized that we were in the same plane for Semarang - Surabaya.
 
Next 2 weeks on February I have stayed in Malang due to some project and realize that I love Malang that damn much. On that week I thought I just wanna stay in Malang and spend my time there.
 
As February is my month! Yes I am an aquarian, the woman who loves water that much starting from dirinking a lot (mineral water for sure), loves to spend your time take a bath, and the only one sport I love is swimming.
I give my own rewards as I have bought ticket to Bali, as this is will be my first time going to God's Island on my 26th birthday. Thank God I have my close friend there, so I don't need to spend much on hotel, cause I can stay at my friend's boarding house.
 
Move to March I am going to spend my two weeks at Bandung. Which is boring for the 1st week cause I've just spent my time hotel-office-hotel. But I have a good occasion when I am going to Jakarta on weekend. But staying at my friend's house is stressed me a lot, due to CAT. It is not that I hate cate, but I am scared to death just imagining those cat will beat me and torn my skin. Horrible. Cat is my traumatic cat since I was kid, due to I saw cat bites my elder sister thumb and blood was like everywhere.
The next 1 week in Bandung was much much fun. Cause I have moved to Bandung city and found 1 good guy. He's face was just like Anies Baswedan, our education ministry. He took me to Dago for romantic dinner and said that well he like me. Hmm I thought it might be love at the first sight, since I do feel my heart is beaten faster whenever I am with him. But I don't wanna go hurry. Cause we completely do not know each other yet. I am that kind of woman who will fall in love once I know you. hehe
 
Anyway, I have stalked this man. Cause I like him a lot, therefore I wanna know more about him. But the result was so heablartbreaking. I found out he is married guy. YES.  He has a wife and 1 adorable kid. How can I fall for someone else's husband. For sure it cannot happen. Therefore I just stop it, and said go back to your wife man.
 
Well if you wanna know how the hell is that feeling, it was like FALLING IN LOVE WHILE BROKEN AT THE SAME TIME. Could you imagine how hurt that feeling?
It is happiness cause you are fall in love, but than again is was so sad that you cannot have him.
That is just priceless experience for me, it's my first time falling in love with stranger and have to stop the feeling immediately. Sakitnya tuh disini hehe
 
Okay maybe I will tell you another story soon, whenever I have time I will remember you my blog.
Cause I am happy whenever my finger hit the keyboard to write.
 
Cheers